Well. Damn. I don’t even know where to begin. So this whole thing with Michael started a long time ago during summer… I guess it was just fling but then again I can’t deny that I had really strong feelings for him.
As time passed and the “You’re amazing” compliments we gave one another became a rare thing… My feelings began to fade. We didn’t see one another all that often… We texted but rarely called one another. It was getting to this point where I knew this wasn’t what I wanted for us… It sucked. But then the texts became to rare that we just stopped talking to one another.
I’d been warned by several people to not talk to him because I was going to get hurt. And that girls that have dated him are known to have gone a little crazy.
I hadn’t really realized it but I was getting a bit crazy. It sucked. I was constantly thinking about what I had done wrong and why I just wasn’t enough. I’d text him and would literally get upset that he wasn’t texting back fast enough if he’d even text back at all. And there were other things that made me crazy that I cant exactly explain… He just made me feel like I had to question everything related to him. And I never really knew where we were in our relationship. But the more I questioned, the more I got crazy and the more I felt overwhelmed.
But then I came to my senses and I confronted him. I told him everything I was feeling. I made him realize this all and let him know that I was probably not going to go back to talking to him the way we had been. I had my answer as to how he really felt about me when we were “together” and now I’m fine. I’m a bit more confident now actually.
